yes i am maresmartians , but doesnt mean im like the one . you know , when it came to mrsm taiping . people expected that all the students must be oh so much brilliant and genius and 3.5 type of kid . what i can say mostly yes but not me . last term im so in the bad luck as i didnt get 3.5 and above result . yes you are allowed to say whatever you want . my result really gotten me down and embrassed me and scared me off too . i felt like wanna hide my face behind curtain if it was there . saying my pointer away seems like confessing that i was murdered someone . i mean ITS HARD .
but whatever , now it doesn't really matter to anyone . and i am rise now after my fall . ive gotten my lesson and my spirit . but another problem came . i dont know wanna put the blame on who . the teachers ? school ? myself or my idiotic brain ? i didnt mastered what ive studied . in the beginning yes but later on it just faded away from my mind . everytime i entered new chapter , i must forgot what ive learned in the chapter before . believe me . that was not including what i didnt even understand a thing the teacher taught . yeah , lots of probs come the way when it came to study . like , i planned wanna stay up the night to make some revisions and doing some exercises . but then i am getting too exhausted and all i can do is just sleep and when i wake up in the morning i've been way to regret for not study last night . these term topics are extremely tougher . and it's hard as i am neither fast leaner nor have strong-permanent-memory . i dont know how to find the way out from this problems . i have tried asking other people to help me in certain subjects and they yes did . but i cant do that often because everyone is busy with their own stuff . so i must be consider not to steal other people's time just to spend it with me .
and the upcoming standardize is about 6 weeks more and i am scare of course . oh please i want 3.5 and above so bad .
